Who is the most important person to me in the world!

This is by far the most difficult question in this series so far!

Who is the most important person to me in the world........

I am thinking that this question is time sensitive. That the importance of people changes with time. I also think that this is not a reciprocal requirement. A might be the most important person for B, but B might not consider A to be that important.

I have lived a pretty non intruded life. Its been really sheltered......most of the time. I had my little shell, my protective armor , anger against the world outside, this rebellious cool feeling and the idea that i had life all figured out.

I was however lacking ...in openness, vulnerability and love. I did not understand the concepts of faith, or trust, or just belief. I was focused on things which...i shouldnt have been. I was pretty much a prime candidate for living a safe and comfortable life...without trusting and trying myself....similar to the following quote by Christopher McCandles

""So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more dangerous to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.""

So, back to the subject :)

The most important person right now is my friend and Mentor JAE. She actually violated lots of my personal rules. Basically intruded on my personal life in lots of ways and asked me questions and put me in situations which made me feel very out of comfort zone. However, i do think that it really helped me move on this path of self knowledge and development.

She taught me about relationships..and trust and shared her life experiences with me. I have been friends with people, but this was a deeper, more responsible friendship. I didnt have room to squiggle out of answers......for some weird reason i felt accountable ..and responsible for being true and honest.

She taught me about faith and belief. Those two things have become life blood for me in recent days.

She taught me how it feels when your trust is broken..and then mended. It is like a muscle. You work out....you tear your muscles...and then they repair to be stronger. I do think certain kinds of trusts are like that.

She taught me about the power of love.

I learnt in her company that the people you allow to intrude most in your life have the ability to hurt you most in life....but that is also the source of most of my happiness. That i can not block my emotions. That i need to quit hating myself.

I learnt how to live radically, in a real manner. That it is not real radicalism to protest, and stand up against the society and show apathy. That there are higher levels of being. That love overcomes all....that real radicalism is to break the confines of society and love all like we love ourselves (and if we dont love ourselves, that we need to start learning how to do so).

And oh, she taught me about God.

She taught me how to break my previous stereo types ...and be open to ideas

She told me that i needed to face my issues rather than bottling them (not that i have done it all...but am working on it).

So, my friend JAE is the most important person to me in the world currently. It may change over time, but i hope that my gratitude and sincerity doesnt.