On a scale of 1 to 10 in self love, i give myself a 4. I believe i have a long way to go. I know i am supposed to love myself as much as i love others (BQ-The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these." Mark 12:31). I really really want to love others and love them properly, and correctly and in a way which helps them. However, that is not possible unless i love myself at the same amount. I realize i have to take this number higher.
The second reason why I believe the number should increase is because God created us in His image, why wouldnt we love someone who God created?
I think the number is low because i am coming to recognize the ugliness and brokenness inside me. I am working on them though......and even though they will never be totally eliminated, i have great hope that they will improve.
Reasons they are low
1- Low self worth
2- Lots of neurosis. An ideal self rearing its head countless times.
3- Super high standards and the desire to "prove" myself....for no darn reason.
4- Lack of (and constant need of) solid relationships...reassuring me of my self worth.
So, how do i improve this.....
I believe that there are ways. The ways i can think of right now are
1. Trust the wisdom of the ancients...work on the brokenness and emptyness.
2. Pray for it.
3. Have faith and trust and hope
4. Set realistic goals..and then actually be proud of myself for achieving them.
5. Love others. Open myself to relationshps...and to being vulnerable etc.
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