What is my biggest wish for the future

A bit ago, it would have totally been to find my perfect baby girl! And to have her! For her to love me and for me to love her! And for us to live this beautiful beautiful fairy tale life. Live an adventure. Smell the flowers. Travel the world. Always be in love. For everyone to accept us.

Why is that wish not a number one anymore? I dont know....i think i am changing. Or atleast i really really hope that i am.



I want to play the exact role that God wants me to play in His Kingdom. That, i believe will accomplish all the other sub-wishes. Know in my heart that i am doing it, feel reassured, and completely safe.
For having the hole in my heart filled.
To feel more whole, more complete.
Having happiness, joy, peace, love and hope in my heart.
I wont feel so lonely anymore.
The greatest wish i have for the future (for myself) is to be truly selfish and giving, be my “real” self and not ideal self. I want to have a sinless soul, humility and love. No pride, no anger, no jealousy or covethness or all the other gross sins.
I want to give myself selflessly to the service of others….without any predisposed intentions or agendas.
I want to have control over myself, my emotions and thoughts.
Have pure humility.
I’d like the world to have peace…and happiness. Eliminate world hunger, and wars. Create an open minded world, where people listen instead of just hearing. Where the walls of discrimination dont exist. Where sin doesnt exis