What Frustrates me?

Apathy frustrates me.

When people dont seem to care about where i am coming from, where their hearts and minds are closed to listening to my thoughts and concerns...it frustrates me.

When I see great potential in people, and then see that they are not realizing it...it really frustrates me.

Pride frustrates me

Gay jokes and homophobia REALLY frustrate me.

Materialism frustrates me.

Some of God's orders frustrate me....really frustrate me.

My lack of relationships frustrate me.

My social awkwardness frustrates me.

Racism, discrimination, and REVERSE DISCRIMINATION frustrate me.

Hate, sadness, war, anger and death frustrate me.

The lack of time frustrates me.

Usually, in all these situations I get closed up. I get angry..and frustrated..and withdraw in to myself. I start focusing on the negatives rather than positives and direct my judgement towards the person rather than the character flaw/attribute.

When people dont want to open their hearts to my ideas, i fall in the same trap and close my heart and mind to their point of view. This i know is detrimental.

Whem people make hurting comments or show ignorance, instead of showing empathy and understanding that it must be an internal struggle to live with so much hate inside, i judge them...and feel anger and hate towards them....

In regards to my lack of social skills, i either over try and come off as over zealous or just retreat in to my shell of self contempt.

Typically in these situations, things go from back to worse. I might say something which i regret, or judge, or give a look. People become bitter. The universe is not pleased.

I realize that all the things which frustrate me are part of my own personality flaws. I realize that i need to care more about people and causes, and develop myself further. So when i am angry at myself for these , i focus the anger on others. I am yet to fully accept myself as i am, who i am, and carry on working on improving and transforming...therefore when other people make crude remarks...instead of checking my soul if i have those ideas too (just hidden), i judge them. I think about myself too much, hence the awkwardness....so that too..is a personality flaw.