The Most painful thing i have experiened

Painful times i have had

Times when i never thought would be glad

Ideas which tore the heart a new

Have happened to me times a few

Amazing how things which may seem

Trivial now, burnt like on a fresh wound kerosine

Little incidents in a child's universe

Haunt me now like a curse

I remember the time when i was a child

Ready to grow and face the wild

I learnt about death and hate for the first time

Filled up my heart with grime

I saw them treat fellow men like beasts

Throw them food, and not give them treats

Sit on the floor you poor beggar, they would say

Always haggle for the price, and never pay

I'll tell you of the time when i left my folks

I was all happy , cracking jokes

Now that i think about it, it was a sad day

Had no connection with anyone in a tight way

I lost my best friend to the war in afghanistan

That day, i hated most the taliban

We were tight , were gonna have love abound

But God did not allow him to stick around

When people i respected fell in grace

Their hypocrisy made em fall flat on their face

When trust was broken, pride polluted my friends

These are the most painful of trends

The day when my gay friend was found dead

Lying overdosed, in his bloody bed

No longer could he handle the ridicule and abuse

May no one have to walk a mile in his shoes

More painful days i have not had is a lie

But i plead to you, do not pry

Not ready to talk about those i am for now

Those bridges will be crossed someday, somehow.

I do declare the worst of all

Was when i truly understood my fall

When i realized that i cant do anything to match

All the sins my soul does hatch

it was so painful to recognize

Fall from the pedestal in my own eyes

See the grossness of my own soul and mind

Where in here can i beauty find?

My only hope is to grow

In better examples and put on a show

Share the love been given to me

And the message which set me free