really over it!

i am over it! I am over listening to you and respecting you and adoring you all the time. I am done looking at you for direction and support and for helping me find my way in life. I am over you telling me what to do or how to do it. I am over you juding me or telling me ...in quite a few words that what i am doing is wrong.
I am over being happy to make you happy. I am over investing in something which has no return. I am over being sad and mopey and thinking of the so called greater truths, which are abstract and for me in life, mean absolutely nothing. The truths which dont fill my hole.
I am over being lonely. I am over hating myself. I am over being angry and not knowing what i am angry about. I am over hiding who i am from anyone and everyone, because this new person you want me to be does not wear this cover.
I am over being submissive all the time. I am over you killing my joy and enjoyment. I am over enjoying the things you enjoy. I am over apologizing or being nice or giving in. I am just over it!
I am over being sad and boring when there is so much to be done. So many mountains to climb. So many things to accomplish.
You may be nice. You may even be wonderful, but i am just over it.