Dear God

-God, can I please be honest. Way more honest than I am now. The honestest around. I want to rest in you. I want to fall in love with you. I want you to fill in the blanks of my life. I don’t want to feel all this brokenness and sacredness and alone. Please help me with that.

-God, please make me loveable. Please let someone love me and let me love them back. With my soul. Please let me experience this your love.

-God, you know my greatest hurt right now. And I don’t know if this is the right time to fix it. To fill the gap. But you do. God, please lead me in the right path. Please talk to me. I am ready to listen. I want to hear what you are telling me, not my friends, not the society, not even Julie. I want to listen to you.

-God, please give Julie all the joy ever. More that she needs or deserves. She is a great person God. Please let her feel your love…all the time.

-God, I still feel resistant to jesus. I know he is real and true, I am just not clear about how the entire mechanism works and it creates doubts in me. Please remove those doubts. Please allow me to experience you in a deeper way, each and every day.

-Lord, you know how Matt struggles all the time. He is a really good kid.l Please please please be merciful and kind to him, and bless him and let him get over his agonizing self doubt. He needs some peace in his heart …..please

-Please direct my mind towards real things, not foolish recreations, not silly stuff but actual honest come closer to you. Please use me as a tool. Please use me to help the world. Please let me feel that I do honestly belong to you.

-Do I need to get baptized soon?

-How do I help the church? They seem to be doing just fine, and I don’t really know anything.

-God, let ali raza be well…..let him get fixed.

-Freddy and lara….they know you exist God. Please speak to them louder if you feel this is the right time. If you want to use me, I am here to speak of you. Please just let them taste life in a solid way…

-Same lies true for the family..if it is your will God, please help them. Show them you.

-Please remove the resistance and ego I have in my heart.

-Please allow me to behave around Julie and David..and all the kids better. True, authentic…but better

-Please help me be nice to david. Not say retarded stuff to him. Be real. Please remove my jealousy. Fix my head. Let me be real..and good….around him.

-Please help me find a direction in my life…..a real purpose. Please talk to me regarding what I should be really doing. And then give me the courage to go for it.

-Please open the hearts of all the good people around me, MOV, my other muslim friends, if it is your will, please save them. Please please please save them.

-Please don’t let me be lonely all my life. Please let me find someone to love and cherish and trust. Please let me find someone to call my own. Please give me the perseverance to last on your path till I find her. Please convict me or direct me otherwise. Please provide me with peace and calm and solace about the whole situation.

-God, I pray for work. Please let it go well. All the glory is yours. I would like to be part of the work and reflect it on to you.

-Please, if it is your will, allow me to be an example for your people.

-Please help Soo develop a real relationship with you. And help her find love and comfort and financial security and peace in her life.

-Please remove this covething from me…..i don’t want these feelings of jealousy and covethness in my heart and it is so ugly. Please please let me just be happy for others and stop comparing myself to others.

-Please allow me to develop solid relationships with people and impact them in real life giving ways.

-I pray for Alejandra God. I hope she is well. God please grant her wisdom and solace, let her be able to seek help and love and may I be able to provide it.

-God, if there is someone who needs me today, please talk to me about it. Please use me to help a lonely soul. And please remove these seeds of anger and pride and just falsehood from me. I really do miss you. I can so see that I wasn’t created to be without you. Allow me to dwelve in your word at a deeper level please. To be yours ….solely yours and from that , seek to be others.

God, I pray for the one I love, the one you have made me to love and care for , in the special way. I am scared about the future. I don’t know how I will meet her, or when I will meet her or if it will even work. God, please give her peace today. And comfort. And let her feel your love. I don’t know how all of this will play out, but if she is there, feeling the same longings I feel in my soul, please give her comfort that there is someone out there. Please allow me to be a good giver, a good taker and to keep you at the forefront of every relationship. Please let her have a great Sunday, and joy in her heart. If she is feeling lonely, please let her not feel so. If she is in need, please fulfil that need. Just love her please.

-God, please help Mr. Carol. Help him find himself. Please figure out what has to be done for him.

-Deborah and Jesse are good kids god! Please allow me to develop a more real relationship with htem. Please talk to me regarding if I should start something at technip.

-Please bless Justice and not let him be overwhelmed with life. Please help him adjust to the whole fatherhood thing, and be ok with it.

-God, Vu is there. He is right there. He is a real guy God and I can not even comprehend what he is going through. Please let him see your love and if you want, please allow me to help him. Please let me handle the situation with sensitivity yet not be complacent about it.

-God, please show Melanie and Mr. Tim the real you. The rough you. The true raw God. I don’t know where they stand, but please bless them.

-Please bless dr Watson, and Paul drake and all thoe who are around in the journey