Prayer

Dear God,

You know i am having a hard time believing in you tonight. My soul is not able to seek your presence and i feel as if i am not going through the narrow gate. I am so tiered of saying sorry,and pushing forth for the right thing all day.

God, I am bad. I know that already. There are some ideas i am having a hard time swallowing.....but i have to ask u for this

Not as the genei who i come to whenever i have problems....but right now i do. A girl i care for more than i care for myself might be worried a bit. Might be having some restless night.

God, Julie is a good girl. She deserves the best. You know that! Please give her a good boss. Help her job be satisfying to her . Let her get pleasure and comfort and gain knowledge out of it. Please let her boss be nicer to her.

And then, in the matters of the heart. She might have kind of broken or atleast hurt david tonight....she is just not sure. Please make this time easier for both of them.

And now to me

God, i know i get all these really uncomfortable feelings when Julie talks about guys. It is "change" but it is more than that. I have this weird possesiveness.....or jealousy for those guys. God, you are the only one who can fix these terrible issues in my heart. Replace it with something good and solid...and one which does not hurt so bad. I really really do want julie to be happy...and for her if happiness means being with one of these guys ...or with someone else...please let her be happy. I know you have abundance of happiness to share, but if it means anything at all, please take my happiness and give it to her.

Sorry i havent written to you in so long

God, can you please give me a real heart .....one to love and care for you with. I read about it, but dont know if i have it. I dont know if i have crossed the narrow door.

Thank you