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The time has stopped today
I can hardly breathe
sickened by my mortal sin
Of pride and greed

I think of better days
When the sun will shine
My time will be happy
And i will not whine

This dependence on drugs and caffine
Is not serving me well
It is making me a slave
Cant you tell

The desire to change my story
Of living a better life
Is causing anxiety in me
Creating in me strife

Unrealistic expectations from others
Wanting them to fill the hole
The unrelentless yelling
The emptyness of my soul

It wont be over forever
Or it might end instantly
Whatever may be the case
This i pray fervently

God help me be the man who
You once envisioned me to be
Before i got wrapped in
The stereotypes of the society

Let me not care any more or less
About poeple than is needed
When my life is surveyed from above
Show that your commands i heeded

Let my pain and lonliness
Not overcome the story i want to write
Give me the persistence and humility required
To play fair in this fight

The wisdom to make courageous decisions
The determination to play fair
Even if i loose everyone i have
If in my soul it creates a new tear

I seek a better future
Some peace in my heart
Can you please show me
Which way do i start